I’m Liesl, 30 years old, I’m gonna share my story. My forbidden story. I am in love with my former teacher way back years ago. And yes, he’s committed. Tama kayo ng pagkakabasa. Sya ay pamilyadong tao na. His name is Jhude. And he’s 28 years older than me.
Rewind muna natin yung time.
I was just 11 years old nung maging teacher ko sya. Teacher nung elementary. Napakahusay nya and napakakisig pumorma kahit moreno lang sya. Hinahangaan ng karamihan dahil sa napakahusay nya sa larangan ng matematika. And sino ba naman ako para hindi humanga sakanya. Ofcourse i admire him too.
Fast forward.
16years ang nakalipas when accidentally makita ko ulit sya. Syempre social media so lahat ng kakilala mo pwede mo na makita or macontact in just a click. And yun nga, inadd ko sya sa fb account ko and gladly, he responded😊
Nagrespond naman sya sa message ko nung magthankyou ako sa kanya dahil inaccept nga nya ako. And moving on, humaba ng humaba ang conversations namin from kamustahan to ano na lagay ng life namin and yung estado ng relasyon ko if I’m in a relationship na.
Then he ask me, “ikaw liesl, kamusta ang lovelife mo. Naku sa ganda ng career mo baka madami na ang suitors mo”. He said jokely. Anyways, I’m a registered nurse nga pala.
Moving on, sinagot ko amg question ni sir Jhude, “nako sir, sakit lang sa ulo ang mga lalake. Much better na munang single ako atleast walang sakit sa ulo and i can go wherever I want”, tugon ko.
Sagot nya, “so may pag asa pala ako sayo?”. Hindi ko maintindihan ang tanong nya kaya naisagot ko sakanya ay “si sir talaga walang pinagbago, palabiro pa rin”.
Then he chatted me, “hindi ako nagbibiro, may pagasa pala ako sayo kase single ka naman pala, pwede ba?”.
Nashock ako at di alam ang sasabihin, mga kulang kulang isang oras bago ako nakatugon sa sinabi nya.
Tugon ko, “eh diba pamilyado ka na? Bat ka nagtatanong ng ganyan?”.
Sagot nya, “alam mo nagustuhan kase kita, napakalakas ng sense of humor mo and napaksarap mong kausap. Napaka witty and maappeal ka din naman.”
Sagot ko, “paano yung asawa mo? What if malaman nya?” anyways, his wife is just a plain housewife.
Then sagot nya, “hindi nya malalaman kung walang magpapaalam, it’s just between you and me”.
Then i feel cold. Para kong na ice freeze at hindi makakilos sa sinabi nya. Gusto ako maging karelasyon ng hinahangaan kong maestro noon and I don’t know what to say.
Then he said, “it’s okay of ayaw mo, hindi naman kita pinipilit. Naattract lang talaga ako sayo because of your wittiness and appearance. Hindi kita pinipilit”.
Then nung mabasa ko yun bigla akong napasagot ng “Sige na, pumapayag na ako. Wag sana makalabas to sir.”
Then he answered me, “okay. Pero wag mo na akong tawaging sir, jhude nalang or isip ka ng cs natin”.
Sabi ko, “ikaw na bahala, jhude”.
Days and weeks passed by, we planned on getting our first meet up. Meet up na intimate, yung 2 lang kami as lovers not as student and teacher.
Then the big day arrived. Magkikita na kami. Inaya nya ako sa isang restaurant in quezon avenue, and kumain kami and nagusap sa labas. Hours passed, hindi namin namamalayan na napakatagal na pala namin magkasama. Then i looked at my watch, “ay, past 9pm na pala. May duty pa ako bukas afternoon shift kase ako”. I said. Then he replied, “gusto pa kita makasama, yung kasama na as in private, yung 2 lang talaga tayo. You know what i mean.”. Then he gasped.
I just looked at him straight in the eye na parang sumisenyas ng tanong na bakit? Then he answered me, “if you...

don’t like, it’s okay. I’ll bring you home na”.
Then i just whispered, “okay let’s go, bring me to the place where you want to go, just us. Just the two of us”.
Then he smiled. Yung ngiti nya na aakalain mo na tatangayin ka sa cloud9 sa sobrang nakakaakit.
Moving forward, he brought me to his car and drove on the way to Makati. We checked in on a 5star suit in makati. We spent almost 10 hours ng magkasama, magkatabi, magkayakap and barely naked. Yes, barely naked. Hubo’t hubad na magkayakap sa isang gabi na hindi namin inaasahan parehas na maari palang mangyare. Isang gabi na halos iparamdam nya sakin ang sarap at langit na hindi ko pa nararanasan and hindi ako nagsisi na ibinigay ko sakanya yun, even though alam ko na 3rd party lang ako.
Then, nasundan ng nasundan ang mga pangyayare. Almost weekly we go for a date and after our date we are moving in a private place. Just us two. Then hindi namin namamalayan na aabot na pala kami ng isang taon. Same situation. Walang nakakaalam kahit sino kundi kaming dalawa lang.
Then, one afternoon on the month of december, I’m waiting for my monthly period which doesn’t arrive. I was totally shocked. I was crying, i called him and said my problem. Then he go to my unit that afternoon dala dala yung PT kit na ipinakisuyo ko sakanya. I took the test and we both saw two lines. Yes, positive sya. I was a month pregnant that time. And i really don’t know what to do. I was crying at him and he hugged me. He said, “anjan na yan, blessing yan ituloy mo.” then i just replied, “paano, paano ang mangyayare?”.
He just answered, “magtiwala ka sakin, i can provide anything you and our child’s needs, just trust me, okay?”.
Then he kissed me on my lips and wiped my tears.
Following months later lumalaki na and nagiging showy na ang baby bump ko. Hindi naman nagkulang si jhude samin ng anak namin. Actually, before almost twice or once a week lang kami magkita, pero ngayon halos araw araw nasa unit ko sya. Hands on sya sa pagaalaga samin and hanggang sa dumating na ang big day, manganganak na ako. And our baby popped out, a little pretty baby girl.
Sa private hospital ako nanganak. Sya nagasikaso lahat ng documents including na yung birth certificate ni baby seiyah. I was terribly in shocked nung makita ko yung papers ni baby. He gave his last name to our baby. He acknowledged and give his name to our baby which i didn’t expect.
After ko manganak, mga 2months ang nakalipas, we flew in nueva vizcaya lase may binili sya na bahay namin doon
Yes, bahay naming magina. Monts and years passes by ganun pa din situation namin, he visits us minsan 3 to 4 times a month and kapag summer vacation nagstay sya samin ng mga 3 weeks to 1 month. Seiyah grrw up na napakalapit sa daddy nya and kasing galing din halos ng dad nya.
Then one time, may nakaratig na balita sakin, nakita ko sa post ng isang workmate ni jhude that he is ill. Terribly ill.
He’s diagnosed with a chronic lung disease. And too late to be cured.
Wala akong magawa, wala akong magawa kundi umiyak at manalangin sa taas na buhayin lang sya lalayo at ihihinto ko na tong relasyon ko sakanya. But, it didn’t happen. He died 10 days before the 4th birthday of our daughter seiyah.
Hindi ko alam paano ko ipapaliwanag sakanya lahat. She’s just too little to understand.
As of now, I’m currently working again in a private hospital here in nueva vizcaya and moving on my life with my daughter. ☺️