Ang ganda mo mahal.”
What if you see me in person magagandahan kapa ba kaya sa ‘kin?
“You look maganda on that picture mahal.”
“You look so beautiful as always.”
“That’s my girl.”
“Ang ganda ng girlfriend ko.”
Kung makikita mo ‘ko sa personal masasabi mo pa kaya yan sa ‘kin yan lahat? Filter lang nag dala sa ‘kin kaya nasasabi mo yan. I’m ugly without a filter.
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“Mahal, gusto ko ng makipag meet sayo.” Saad ni Aljhon sa kabilang linya.
“But mahal…”
“Sige na mahal please, i really want to meet you. Please.”
Hindi ako pumayag at first but ilang oras niya akong pinilit kaya napapayag nalang ako.
I don’t want him to see my ugly face, ang pangit at ang taba ko.
Natatakot akong ma turn off siya sa ‘kin.
Natatakot akong makita niya ang gantong mukha ko kapag walang filter.
Natatakot akong iwan niya ako.
Kaya napag desisyonan kong si ate ang ipa meet up ko sakanya, kasi yung ate ko maganda, maputi, sexy, and she’s perfect that i really wish i was her. And since kamukha ko naman siya unti.
“Mikaela hindi pweding ako ako ang ipikita mo.”
“Ate please sige na huhu.” Pagpumulit ko rito.
“Mikaela, if he really loves you he will accept your flaws.”
“Ate sige na kasi!”
“I said no. He’s your boyfriend!”
“Ate huhu.”
“You’re beautiful, bakit kailangan mo pang magtago? And kung ganda lang pala hanap niya then you don’t deserve him.”
Well my ate is right. But I’m also afraid to lose him.
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Andito ako ngayon kung saan sinabi ni Aljhon na mag kikita kami. Since wala naman akong napala roon sa pagpumulit ko kay ate, ako nalang ang sumulpot...

dito.
10 minutes passed may nakita akong pamilyar na lalaki na bumaba sa taxi. Maybe it’s him, God he look so handsome in person, tapos ako? I look so fvcking ugly.
Sa sobrang kaba ko na makita niya ako, tatayo na sana ako sa kina-upuan at aalis na nang bigla niyang tinawag pangalan ko.
“Mikaela is that you?” Napayuko na lamang ako at hindi alam ang gagawin dahil sa hiya na makita niya ako.
Nagulat na lamang ako nang bigla ‘tong tumakbo at niyakap ako ng mahigpit.
“Fvck! After all this months mahal, nakita na rin kita sa personal.” He said and hug me so tight. “You look so beautiful.”
W-what? He doesn’t think that I’m ugly?
“I’m b-beautiful?”
“What do you mean? You’re always pretty.”
“N-no, I don’t believe you. Look how different am i without a filter.”
“Soo this is the reason kung bakit ayaw na ayaw mong makipag kita sa ‘kin from the start? Mahal you’re pretty enough. Stop being so insecure, you’re beautiful with or without filter. Ikaw lang naman yung nag-iisip na pangit ka. Maganda ka always remember that mahal.” He said and gently kissed my forehead.
“I’m sorry.”
“Shh, you’re beautiful okay? I love you so much.”
I always lose my self-confident and always soo insecure by my looks, but after he said that napataas ang self-confidence ko. I’m so lucky to have him, I’m so lucky to have a boyfriend like him.
Imagine having a boyfriend like Aljhon. A man who will help you boost your confidence. A man who doesn’t make you feel insecure about yourself. And a man who will accept all your flaws. Damn gurl you’re soo lucky.
By : Janin B Panganiban